1981

I fail to be consistent in my writing. I don’t mean to, but it is still true nonetheless.

Having said that… I sat down & wrote 1981 words over the last couple hours.

I’m now going to invoke the saying, “Something is better than nothing.” It’s 1981 more than I did yesterday or the day before, or the one before that.

So, go me. I’m going to pat myself on the back for a job well done. πŸ™‚
It’s also well passed my bedtime. – Night! πŸ˜‰

With Pen & Paper….

It feels so incredibly good to spend hours with a pen & a notebook.

Typing is great. Flipping open my laptop and writing away the time is good stuff.

However, there is still nothing quite like writing with pen & paper.

I just filled page after page with notes, characters, & plot details. — & for me, doing that on paper is so much more enjoyable than typing it up. — Eventually I have to bust out the laptop for almost all the book writing… but in the beginning stages, before the real story writing begins….. you’ll always find me with a pen & paper.

Book Update: It’s going really well! I’m just getting started, but I’m definitely off & running. — I’ll keep you guys updated. But I think for sure, one of the best things I’ve done lately was deciding to follow my heart & instinct on this whole book change thing. — I’ve known these characters and their stories for years… I just never thought that was the type of writer I should be or the type of genre I should be in. — A tragic love story was never the road I thought I should travel down. But in these characters and that of their family & friends, I have the ability to breathe the life into them that I’ve always known was there. — That’s exciting and it’s even a bit magical. — How could I possibly pass on that?

Humiliation, Humor, & Happiness…

I am going to humiliate myself in public….. Β Β All in the name of book research, of course. πŸ˜‰

Yep, I’m going to play a round of golf!

Haha, thing is… I’ve never played golf. I’ve never even been on a golf course. — Β I’ve played putt-putt, like the little kid version of golf you play on vacation with the whole family, and even then all I did was humiliate myself. Lol! — Because I can’t even play that! (I have even been known to pick the ball up & place it into the hole a time or two… Yep, that’s right, I super cheat.)

There are some important golfing scenes in my book, so I have no choice but to get out there and play some golf.

— 3 things. —

Thing 1: It will probably be the worst golfing anyone has ever seen, no seriously.. it will be πŸ˜‰ , but it’s still exciting & fun because it’s a new adventure. It’s something I’ve never experienced & to be honest, never wanted too. — But even doing something that will embarrass you to no end, is fun when you know you’ll have a good time with good people & make new memories. Β — (Yes, my husband is likely to record this sporting disaster & share it with everyone, haha, but I can’t say that I’d blame him.. πŸ˜‰ )

Thing 2: This sort of research is so much fun! The kind where you can actually get out & experience what you are trying to put into words…. it just makes things that much more exciting. It makes writing about it more exciting. — Plus, there is nothing quite like being able to say, “Who me? Oh, I’m a writer & I’m doing some book research.” — Word!

Thing 3: When I’m doing research… I’m making progress, and progress is always good! πŸ™‚

So sometime in the next couple of weeks I’m going golfing. — I will be sure to let you guys know how it goes. πŸ™‚

Back In The Saddle.

Sitting down to write and not having a thing to say is the worst. The last few weeks when I try to write I can’t seem to find a thing to write about. This is my first blog post in a while and it’s been a few weeks since I’ve really worked on my book. — However I’m forcing myself back in the saddle so to speak… and writing whether it makes any sense to me at the moment or not. πŸ™‚

It’s overwhelming to look at all the amazing authors out there and think that I could compete with that. Then again, I’ve always told others that you won’t get anywhere if you spend all of your time comparing yourself to others. — Time to take my own advice, eh?

So just a little advice, don’t compare yourself to others and decide that you fall short. We all have something to contribute to this world, we all have a difference to make in our own way. So it may be different than someone else’s, but that doesn’t make it any less significant. — Because just think, if the person you are comparing yourself to had thought the same way, they probably wouldn’t have made it to where they are. — So don’t quit, don’t ever give up. We owe it to ourselves to have faith in what we can do. πŸ™‚

-Hmthreatte.

The Battle

Here’s to that moment in life when everything you are striving to accomplish is the one thing you are terrified to touch. — Sounds great, right?

Sometimes I absolutely despise myself. — I don’t mean that in an “I hate myself” sort of way. More like an “I am so fed up with my inability to interact like a normal person” sort of way. — Β I promise there is a difference.

I just feel so misunderstood sometimes. People have had a lot of different reactions to who I am & how I act. — Some of the really good ones: “Why are you so stuck up and rude?” “Why are you being so complicated?” “Why are you such a little hermit?” Β “You make things harder than they have to be.” Oh and of course the ever faithful, “Grow up and get over it.” — I’m shy. Terribly, terribly shy. Everything under the sun makes me nervous. I’m bad at conversations. I’m not good at interacting with people. I fumble over words & things come out all wrong & then I just feel like an idiot. — I know I’m not an idiot… it’s just in that moment, it feels that way. — Unfortunately, I can’t just flip a switch & turn all that off.

There have been times I tried explaining myself to people until I was blue in the face. All explained out. Tried, tried, and failed. I’ve been so frustrated, and many times, down right furious. — It’s hard to try and make people see what they can’t understand.

Writing a book makes me nervous. It’s a big deal. It’s a huge step for anyone to take. Heaven knows I feel like the weight of the world is trying to come at me already. — The last couple of weeks I have felt like if I touch it, if I pick up & write where I left off last, I’m going to mess it all up. Sometimes even when I’m typing it all out I think about how one day people are going to read it, and then I end up fumbling all those words onto the screen. They come out all wrong. — See, people make me nervous, lol.

I’m working on it. I’m trying to do better. — Β I’m going to pick up where I left off. I know, deep down, that I have what it takes to do this. I have what it takes to complete this book & many more after it. — It’s this never-ending battle with myself that is making it so difficult. — I have to fight it. I can’t let the pessimist in me win.

When I started this blog it was as a sounding board for myself as well as opening up to a public audience. It’s about my writing journey. — This is part of that. It’s a really ugly part, but that doesn’t make it any less significant. In fact, it has a huge impact on where this book goes and how long it takes me to get it there.

I know one day I’m going to look back at blog posts like this one, after having accomplished this first book, and be so very proud of myself. πŸ™‚

-hmthreatte!

Poison Ivy & Things.

So, check this out. I’ve lived out in the country, in a small south Georgia town, my entire life. Though I have been surrounded by poison ivy ever since I was a child, I have never come into contact with it. — Correction, had never. — That’s right… it finally got me. — (I actually think my dog thought it’d be cute to run through it and share it with me, so kind of her, right? πŸ™‚ ) — In all seriousness though, it’s just about cleared up now. — Thank God for that! πŸ™‚Β 

I sat down with my laptop to work on my book… but I thought I’d come over to WordPress and type away here first. — I really need to get to work, I’ve got a lot to do, but I like to put the P in procrastination sometimes. (Bad habit, I know.)

I have honey roasted peanuts & Coke too. See, I’m all decked out and ready to go! — Except for that whole procrastination thing. — Β I’m off to the mountains on Thursday for Vacation. That should be fun, but I will be sure to take my work with me. Ya never know, Sitting outside at night in the cool mountain air… might just make for some good writing. πŸ™‚

-hmthreatte.