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It’s Like Jekyll & Hyde… Sort Of.

This is about my many heated, volatile, passionate, wild, irrational, mixed emotions… about working out.

If you’re wondering, what?! Don’t worry. I’ll explain.

I love it. I love exercising. It’s the best way for me to kick stress. It feels good. It’s fun, It’s exciting. It does fantastic things for my mental well being as well as my physical. Seriously, it does it all. It’s great. The endorphin rush is worth writing home about. It’s fantastic!

But here’s the thing… despite all that, and knowing what’s waiting for me on the other side… I still have to drag myself off the couch, grumbling and complaining most days… because, well, I don’t wanna!

But I do! But I don’t! — Now isn’t that something?

I was thinking about it yesterday while working out. Right smack in the middle of some jumping jacks, I was like, Oh yeah!! Best decision I’ve made all day baby!!!! (I may or may not have said this out loud.) (I did it. I said it out loud. With an embarrassing amount of enthusiasm, too.)

Anyway, my mind went back to when it took me an hour, a full hour, to convince myself to get up and work out. I literally grumbled all the way to the closet to change. Then all the way to the laundry room to get my shoes. Then I sat on the couch for an hour, reading a book, with my tennis shoes on, trying to convince myself to get up. I grumbled as I put on music, and huffed with great annoyance during the first few minutes of exercising. However, halfway through, there I was shouting all sorts of ridiculous stuff because I felt fantastic!

And I thought, why in the world did I fight myself so hard? Why is it so difficult to get up and get started when I know I’m going to be incredibly grateful when it’s all said and done?

Isn’t it wild how that works? And maybe that’s just a me thing. For all I know I’m the only person in the world who does this. It’s like the lazy, unmotivated part of me is like, no. I don’t want to. Leave me alone. But the slightly more disciplined, wiser part of me is like, Yes. Get up. Now! You lazy couch potato! — And round and round we go.

It’s funny, it was easier when I was losing weight a couple years ago. Because every week I’d see a pound/pound and a half drop and that was all the motivation I needed to keep at it. I had way less days where I didn’t want to. Plus it was new, and that made it more fun. Now that all the extra weight is gone, and the new has worn off, I have to fight to stay more disciplined. Which is strange, given I know if I don’t exercise enough I’m a grumpy, antagonistic, much more anxious, I-will-bite-your-head-off-for-looking-at-me kind of person. (And nobody wants that! — Just ask my husband… 😉 )

So there’s a little look into my love/hate relationship with working out. I really do love it. It’s changed my entire life for the better. But I still have to fight a part of me that’s like, I would rather not, thank you. Crazy, huh?

Maybe not. Maybe you can relate. I don’t know. If you can, you know what I’m talking about. We can commiserate together. If you can’t, well, gimme some of what you got!

I’ll see y’all later. I have to go workout.

Heather!

Book Updates! Sweetgum Valley Series

I think I’m going to try and finish making my book cover this week. I think.

I’ve also been contemplating a title change for the first book. I haven’t found anything else that fits though, so we’ll see how that goes. Maybe. It’s a maybe.

This past week I worked on an out of order edit, (still working on it ) meaning I’m jumping around randomly, editing chapters out of order. It helps because I tend to stay focused on just the chapter in front of me, rather than the book as a whole. A line by line, paragraph by paragraph look at it.

Book 2. It’s hanging out in ‘haven’t touched it in weeks, still requires multiple edits’ land. It’s only had one so far, and that’s not nearly enough.

In between stuff for the other books, I’m writing book 3. It’s at 30,000 words, roughly 1/3 of the way there.

I have a million other things to do as well, but my primary goals for the moment are to completely finish edits on book 1, format it, finish the cover, and write book 3.

I plan to publish the first book around late spring, early summer. And the second around late fall, early winter. We will see if I manage to keep this timeline. I’m sure going to try though. 😊

— Somewhere in there before I publish, I’ll start working on sending out monthly newsletters. It’s not as high up on the priority chain as getting book 1 complete. It’s coming though! —

Just thought I’d share a quick update.

Heather! ❤️

I Made This Bed, Now I Must Lie In It…

Good Afternoon, Ladies & Gents. (Don’t ask. I don’t know. I’m weird.)

I committed to writing a blog post a day in 2020, and I’m suddenly realizing I have no idea what I’m going to talk about day in and day out. That’s 365 days worth of me chattering on about something or other. Brilliant idea, Heather. Brilliant idea.

Ya know, when I finally committed to writing books, giving it a real go, I had no idea what actually lay ahead of me. Once upon a time, long, long ago, I thought writing would be the hard part. (Can you hear me laughing from over here?) Little did I know, until I’d finished writing the first one, that the writing was the easy part.

What came next was the daunting realization that I’d only just scratched the surface. I had an 85,000 word, roughly 320 page novel, that I had to do something with. And not just do something, but a lot of somethings. Editing. (Which, really is never ending.) Formatting. Networking. Marketing. Book covers. Learning how to use a multitude of new computer programs. Managing a website and social media accounts across various platforms. Self-publishing. Copyright. More writing in between all this. Newsletters and mailing lists. Finding beta readers for feedback. The horror that is waiting on that feedback. Blogging. Maintaining the connections I’ve already made, as well as making new ones. And even with everything I just mentioned, guarantee you I forgot some stuff. There’s more, I’m sure. Not to mention, I’m still unpublished at the moment, which will open up a whole new world of things once I’ve reached that step.

I tell my husband sometimes, usually when I come up against something I don’t want to deal with, I’m like, can I just quit already? — He always says no. You’ll get it. You can do it. — Personally, I think he’s a perpetual optimist when it’s other people, and the next time his boss asks him to make a public speech at a company party, I’m going to say, Oh baby, you’ve got this. You can do it. (I mean I say that anyway, but I’m going to relish it a little more now. 😉 )

But since I can’t quit, and really I don’t want to, I’m going to keep on keeping on.

Which just means you’re going to continue to get a blog a day. And a bunch of books, too.

Much Love,
Heather.