I haven’t worked on writing my book in months. Not one word. Why? Well, I’m not even sure. — I feel like starting over from scratch, like I mean I have a couple chapters written & a bunch of notes that make up jumbled thoughts & pieces of the story. It’s just… now I’m second guessing if I’m going in the right direction with my writing or if I’m just too scared to keep trying.
Do I throw away what I’ve written & start over? Do I completely scratch the idea & come up with another one? Do I try to write something entirely different? Or do I just push on? — I can’t decide. Sometimes I feel like I’m stopping because I’m a big chicken & sometimes I feel like I’ve just lost my way.
It’s a lot of hard work. What if I can’t do it? What if I fail? What if it sucks? What if people hate it? Shoot, what if I hate it? — What if I’m just a horrible writer & only I think I’m good at it? Lol… talk about awkward! — Is it worth it? To do all that work, put all the time & passion into it for it to possibly be the worst piece of literature to ever be written. Lol… (Okay, so it probably wouldn’t be quite that bad, lol, but you catch my drift.)
Tis’ the fear of the unknown! It will drive you insane. — I mean I’d never give up writing. I’d be lost without it. It’s part of who I am. It’s part of what makes me, me. However… there is still the possibility I’m no good at it. — I read in a book the other day where someone said “Anybody can write, but to be an exceptional writer you have to be naturally talented.” — Well what if I’m the only person that thinks I’m talented? Lol… wouldn’t that get interesting?
Anyway, I just thought I’d tell you guys a little bit about why I rarely write about what I’m working on… lol, it’s because I’m not working on it. — We’ll see what happens though. — I do this a lot. 🙂