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Well This Gets Embarrassing…

Ay-Yo! 😀

So I wanna tell y’all about all the neat things I have learned from this whole weight loss/exercise journey. Things I have learned about myself… Also there may be things you will learn about me here that may entertain you to no end… who knows?! (Me! I know. Just don’t go telling everybody..  it’ll be our little secrets!)

So here’s a thing… if there were ever a class that someone wanted to offer to people about quitting & not following through with things… they would hire me to teach it. & they would definitely have themselves quite the qualified instructor. I could teach you all about it. Except…. let’s be real.. I’d probably quit.

So now that we’ve established that I almost never follow through with things I start. I would like to explain that low self-confidence & fear of failure are the number 1 reasons that I’d be perfect for such a position. Of course, that’s also why I wouldn’t be too! — (You see what I’m working with here? I’m a hot mess. — Literally, I live in the south… it’s hot here. 😀 )

Anyhow… I said all that to say this… I have not quit this time. — One day, back in February, I asked myself… what are you doing? Why are you not fighting for more out of life? & I knew the answer. It’s the same ol narrative it’s always been. I am too afraid. I am scared & I don’t believe in myself. — & there was something that just sorta hit me like a ton of bricks.. ( Prolly Jesus tbh… tho… I mean.. I’m sure He wouldn’t actually swing a sack of bricks at me… tho… I won’t test it.. I can be a real pain. You can ask my mom.. she would back me up on that one, I have no doubt. 😀 )

If I don’t make a single move to do anything worthwhile at all, if I stay right where I am…. I lose. If I make moves, aim for something worthwhile, refuse to stay where I am… I could still lose…. but it wouldn’t be without a fight. I wouldn’t just lay down & die like I’ve been doing. & I stand more chances to come out on the other side if I make the effort to do so. As long as I’m stalled, here where I’m at, I’m done for… & it’s not because I didn’t fight for more or push forward… it’s because I let the fear of failure determine my future… I let the idea of failing cause the very failure I dreaded. — & in that moment, on February 16th, 2018 (Yes, we have a date to go with this pivotal moment 🙂 )… I chose to make a move.

You see earlier that same day I got dressed & my jeans were too tight & I was all like, I need to go shopping & get me some new jeans. Bigger jeans. (Because who doesn’t love having to size up? Me… it’s me, I don’t. ) — But then I decided to make a move & new just where I was going to start. With myself. The me that I let go because I felt I had no purpose & was already defeated. That person needed to learn to fight for herself. — Which she did.

It is now over 3 months later, I have lost 25 lbs.. (Okay.. 24… but seriously… it’s much more fun for me to round up. 🙂 ) I exercise every day & I love it. I drink more water a day than I used to drink in a week. I quit soda. (mostly… I do have like a small can on occasion. The little 90 calorie cans, you know the ones. The ones you see in the grocery store & you’re like… it’s only 50 cents cheaper than the 12 pack, might as well just get the 12 pack, more for my money. — Yeeaaahh, I did that too. Now I just get less for my money & less coke… I’m not sure I’ve won anything here… but oh well! 😀 ) I live & breathe calorie management.. I literally do math every day… & I don’t even like math. —

Sometimes I wanna be lazy.. & I have to push myself to get up & get down to some Toby Mac. That’s right… I dance. I haven’t mentioned that part yet… but I’m not a runner, or a walker, or a workout video follower… I’m a dancer. & to be honest with you… when I say I’m a dancer what I mean is that I’m a dancer at heart. On the inside. On the outside… I can’t promise I don’t look like some sort of discombobulated chicken? I also try to sing while I dance.. & I can’t hardly breathe.. & so my mean ol Husband (Not really… he’s my favorite & I adore him.) records me at the door & giggles about it later.  I mean I don’t know. I have no rhythm. I’m not very coordinated. & not sure you’d want me to dance at your wedding… but it works! & it’s fun & makes me feel alive. So imma keep rolling with it.

I rambled on about all of that to say this… for the first time in my life I have learned so much about perseverance, determination, motivation, & pushing myself when those very things fail me. I have pushed myself 10 more minutes, only ate 10 chips at the mexican restaurant.. 10! That’s all I could have. Used to eat half a basket & come to find out 20 chips is around 300 calories. Say what?! That’s just a free appetizer? Can’t even have more than 10 chips! That is dedication if I ever saw it, I tell you. I am dedicated, can’t say I’m not! 😀 )

I fight for it every day. & I stick with it even when it’s hard & when it’s not fun. Like when I raked leaves til I had blisters (cause I don’t rake leaves on the regular & my husband informed me an hour & a half in that gloves would prevent blisters… ohhhhh, now you tell me. I just wanted to burn some calories… not my skin!) Or when I shoveled dirt & came inside later covered in bug bites. (the prices I have paid, I tell you, for trying to spice up some calorie burning.)

The thing is, as hilarious as it has been sometimes, I have pushed, I have fought, I have kept going… even when the guy at the register of the fast food place was like, but the burger is going to cost you the same price with or without the fries, you sure you don’t want the fries? — Yeah, I’m sure. — But it’s the same price… I can just give you the fries too.. — nope, I’m good. — But it’s the same price?! — Sweet Lord, get behind me satan! No seriously tho..  I know he was just trying to be nice & help me out. — But I stuck to it. When I could have easily said, ya know what… yeah.. might as well. & ate them anyhow. But I didn’t. & I’m sure that lovely employee thinks I’m a loon. But that’s okay! I was determined to stick with it… & I did.

I have stuck with it since the beginning. I have made so much progress. Not just physically, but mentally, emotionally… it’s been life changing. It may seem small to some, I’m sure. But for me…. it was a huge leap & something I was afraid I would fail at. But I’m still here fighting the good fight. Confusing restaurant workers & embarrassing myself in the name of exercise. 😀

There’s no going back now! You guys are all just going to have to buckle up because you’re along for the ride… 😀

 

 

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Cake! :D

I could be sleeping right now.. I am crazy tired… & yet, here I sit binge watching Cake Wars. — Also… now I’m hungry… & I want cake. Lots & lots of cake. 😀  — Clearly, I’m just gonna have to take myself to the grocery store tomorrow & get some cake…. because, well, it’s delicious of course. 😀

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When The Food Goes Missing…

I don’t have the first interesting thing to write about. But I am attempting to make an effort to write every day & toss out at least one blog post a day. — So I am just going to tell you whatever comes to mind. — 🙂

Okay.. so, something super random…   — My sweet, adorable, furry, cute-as-pie, black labrador… likes to snitch things off of plates & counter tops when one’s back is turned. — You’d think… with that cute-as-pie & as innocent as they come little face that she has…. she’d never do such a thing. — Well.. my friends, that is not the case. She is indeed a furry little food thief! 😀 — French fries, sandwiches, burgers…. & my husband’s little sausage biscuits he likes to have for breakfast… haha.. okay, that one is actually pretty funny. Looking like a little chipmunk with her cheeks all puffed out full of biscuit…. lol… if that doesn’t brighten one’s day I don’t know what could.. 😉  — Anyhow… she’s adorable… but… this life of crime she’s living… shame, shame on her I say. 😀 — Seriously tho.. how are there people who don’t like dogs? — All that adorableness sure is hard to resist if you ask me. 😉

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Hey Y’all!

Hey y’all!

Couple Things. 1. It’s after 2 a.m. & I’m cleaning the bathroom. Cause, well,  I’m what one would call a procrastinator & it’s what we do. 😀

2. This is me procrastinating even further by taking what I like to call a “cleaning break.” Don’t wanna overdo it… that’d just be irresponsible.. 😉

3. Ya ever creep on people on social media? (& don’t pretend like you don’t, I know… I know you do… Lol, it is what’s done. 😉 — Anyhow, ever check people out on there & see what all they have going on & realize that they need your advice… But like, you can’t give it to em’ cause, well, then you’d have a lot of explaining to do! Lol!! — Yep. That’s actually kind of funny. 😀

4. I like to get a glass of wine, a good book, & a bubble bath throw it all together &… well, not like, actually throw any of it in the bath, but you see where I’m going here. It’s nice & relaxing. & well, that leaves books scattered all over our bathroom over time & my husband complains about it… lol. It’s kinda funny, I think. Anyhow, I just took em all out of here… 11! 11 Total. Tho I did leave one of those 11 cause I’m still reading it. Anyhow… that’s practically a little bookshelf. A teeny tiny one, but still. I could run a library out of here. Anybody wanna check out a book?! 😀

5. I’m going camping in October. I think I should mention that I hate camping, ya know, so that you get the full picture here. Lol. –So if I don’t get eaten by a bear, traumatized by the lack of personal shower/bathroom, or simply go insane… it could maybe be fun! 😀 — I went once & it was a disaster. The bright side here, is it will be much cooler than when I went last time. That was right smack dab in the middle of July & I bout died. I’m a heat hater, for real. — So, fingers crossed that the cooler weather makes it a more enjoyable experience! — I should mention, I’m doing this for my husband. It was technically my idea, buuutttttt, I could have simply rented a hotel room, instead, I knew how much he’d love a camping trip… so I made the sacrifice. — Look at me, I should get a little plaque that says, “Best Wife Ever” to hang on our wall. Ha! 😉 😉

6. My foot has fallen asleep, as it has apparently noticed it’s nearly 3 a.m, while the rest of me seems to have missed that memo. Ya know, the one about sleeping. 😉

Anyhow… talk to you all later! 😉
Heather. 😀

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So This Happened…

When you’re sitting in your living room, staring at your lap top with a pretty tough case of writer’s block going on, feeling like a failure… & you see a rain frog hopping around in your living room…. what do you do?

You save its life & feel like a hero. That’s what you do!

So, who’s feeling like a failure now, I ask? Not me, I just saved a life.

A tiny little life that apparently thought I was attempting to do it tremendous harm & therefore made me give chase all around the furniture in the room…. but no matter, the important thing here is that I saved a life. 😉 😉

 

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To Write & Ramble…

Can’t sleep.

So I think I’ll write.

Don’t wanna tho. Wanna sleep. Only because I have to get up early & I know I’m gonna hate life in the am.

So I have reasoned that if I’m going to be awake, I might as well be productive while I’m awake. Soooooooo…. Yep. Bout to write the night away. Not on here tho, I have a book to work on…. which technically means instead of sleeping I’m going to be working. — See, now it’s not starting to sound as fun as it did a minute ago. Look what I did. I turned this into something ugly.

Okay, seriously. I need to stop rambling on like this, lol. There is work to be done. 😀

See ya guys later! 🙂

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Cheers! :)

Sam: “You’re my friend. I’m never going to take a woman away from you.”
Frasier: “What about Diane?”
Sam: “And didn’t God punish me with a vengeance?”
😀 😀 😀
Haha!

Having myself a little Cheers binge-a-thon on Netflix. — Cheers was before my time, well, technically it started airing before I was born & I was 2 when the series ended. So until recently I’ve never bothered to watch it. — I found Frasier earlier this year, and what a gem that is! 😀

In the last couple of years or so I have watched MacGyver, The A-Team, Magnum P.I, Murder She Wrote, Frasier, Green Acres, Hawaii five-0, and I’m sure a couple I’ve forgotten about, lol. — Something I’ve noticed tho is that every time I sit down to watch these shows, I find myself wishing today’s shows were like those of yesterday’s. — Cause I sure do love ’em… 😀

heather.

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A Few Dislikes & A Little Subtlety… ;)

Ya know what I don’t like?

I don’t like strange toppings on my pizza or blueberries in my muffins.
I don’t like scary movies or large bodies of water.
I don’t like unkindness in strangers or the heat in the summer.
& I don’t like when others think that who I vote for is something they can decide better than I can or that I’m wasting a vote if I go against the majority.

I do however, like pepperoni pizza with peppers, and of course chocolate chip muffins. (Tho not together)
I like comedies and the mountains.
Kindness in strangers and the cold in the winter.
& I like that I have a right to my own voice and my own vote.

& one other quick thing….
“Without deviation from the norm, progress is not possible.” -Frank Zappa.
I like that quote, for it speaks volumes. 😀

Heather. 😉

 

 

 

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Fun Facts.. & an Opinion or Two.

1.) 60 million years ago there was a super giant monster snake that roamed the Earth. Titanoboa: Weighing in at 2500 pounds & 48 feet long. (Whaaaa? Yeah, you read that right.)

2.) 2 words. 1 animal. Think respiratory muscle paralysis. — Cone Snail! — 1 piece of advice. Whatever you do, don’t touch it! — Should you vacation in Australia… don’t touch it! Lol.

3.) In fact, don’t touch anything in the ocean. Nothing at all. Stay away. It’s all dangerous. (Okay that one is an opinion, lol.) —- BUT should you venture into the ocean & touch things or if things in the ocean touch you.. & it then proves to be rather painful… you should seek help from a medical professional. Lol! — I tried to warn you, I did all I could. 😉

4.) Chernobyl. The residents of Pripyat had no idea what was going on until like 36 to 48 hours or so after the accident. By then, tons of them were already feeling the effects of the radiation. — Seriously, when there has been a nuclear disaster, let’s not take our time informing the folks that are being contaminated by it. (That last part is an opinion, Lol, but a good one!)

5.) You probably shouldn’t live very close to a nuclear plant. That could very well be a disaster waiting to happen. Get far, far away. Far away. & once you’ve gotten far away…. go a little further. Lol. & just keep going. If you’ve gone that far & you pass by another one… keep going. Go passed that one & get further away. 😉 — Seriously… this is good advice, lol!

6.) Mudskippers. Coolest fish ever. They can breathe through their skin. They flip around in the mud. & they’re kind of aggressive & a little moody. They like to throw down with each other. — It’s pretty funny.

7.) Antarctica. There are these little research communities up there. Some people stay all year, through all the seasons. They hire people to work during the summer months… & a lot of those guys only stay through the summer because winters are so rough. — They even have like little grocery stores & all sorts of little things. They’re practically in their own little world, cut off from the rest of civilization. — & when they have winter storms, the ice comes like 5 or 6 feet inside their doors & they have to chip it away after the storm is over. — Pretty cool! 🙂

 

In case you guys haven’t noticed…. I watch a lot of documentaries. 😉

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I’m In Love…

So. First I found Sherlock. Then I found Broadchurch.

I’m in love.

BBC, why have I never noticed you before now? Okay, I take that back. I purposely overlooked you because I’m accustomed to my long 22 episode per season television shows & I figured I’d get all attached to your characters & then I’d just be disappointed when the shows ended before I was ready for them too. So why set myself up for heartbreak? I’ll just stay away, I reasoned. — Selfish, I know. — However, I now see how bad that logic was. I apologize. — Forgive me? I promise to make it up to you in the form of binge-watching! 😀