I could be sleeping right now.. I am crazy tired… & yet, here I sit binge watching Cake Wars. — Also… now I’m hungry… & I want cake. Lots & lots of cake. 😀 — Clearly, I’m just gonna have to take myself to the grocery store tomorrow & get some cake…. because, well, it’s delicious of course. 😀
I don’t have the first interesting thing to write about. But I am attempting to make an effort to write every day & toss out at least one blog post a day. — So I am just going to tell you whatever comes to mind. — 🙂
Okay.. so, something super random… — My sweet, adorable, furry, cute-as-pie, black labrador… likes to snitch things off of plates & counter tops when one’s back is turned. — You’d think… with that cute-as-pie & as innocent as they come little face that she has…. she’d never do such a thing. — Well.. my friends, that is not the case. She is indeed a furry little food thief! 😀 — French fries, sandwiches, burgers…. & my husband’s little sausage biscuits he likes to have for breakfast… haha.. okay, that one is actually pretty funny. Looking like a little chipmunk with her cheeks all puffed out full of biscuit…. lol… if that doesn’t brighten one’s day I don’t know what could.. 😉 — Anyhow… she’s adorable… but… this life of crime she’s living… shame, shame on her I say. 😀 — Seriously tho.. how are there people who don’t like dogs? — All that adorableness sure is hard to resist if you ask me. 😉
My junior year in high school, we were given a project to do in lit class. Pick two songs with lyrics that meant something to us or inspired us in some way, that sort of thing. We could either assemble them into a scrap-book or write them on a white t-shirt, one on the front, the other on the back… then present them to the class & explain why we chose them. — I only remember one of the songs I chose. I can’t for the life of me remember the other one. But as it doesn’t pertain what I’m about to share, I guess it doesn’t really matter. — What does matter, however, is the song I do remember.
Stand, by Rascal Flatts. I remember thinking back then, this really isn’t a cool song. I almost, in fact, traded it in for something more hip & teenager-like. I mean, at 16, those aren’t really the kind of songs teenagers are blasting on their radios. Anyhow, I went with it in the end. & looking back now, I’m glad I did.
I just heard it again. For the first time in ages. & just like when I was younger, it encouraged me & spoke to me, in that way only music can do. — If you don’t know, these are just some of the lyrics….
“Cause when push comes to shove,
You taste what you’re made of.
You might bend till you break,
‘Cause it’s all you can take.
On your knees, you look up,
Decide you’ve had enough.
You get mad, you get strong,
Wipe your hands, shake it off,
Then you stand.”
Life is a beautiful journey. It’s a gift & worth every second. Having said that tho, it’s not always fun. It’s not always pretty, & it’s not always easy. It’s full of pain, anger, sadness, loss, & loneliness. So much heartbreak & so many struggles. It’s a journey that is filled with a lot of ugliness along the way. Some that we talk about & share with others, some that we keep to ourselves & don’t speak of. But what doesn’t change, is that it’s there & changes shape throughout life.
Lately, some of that ugliness has been creeping in & keeping me company despite that I didn’t invite it or welcome it once it waltzed through the door.
Ya see, I think for all of us, it’s the same. We’re pushed & we’re shoved, until we bend & we break… we get knocked down. That’s something I knew back then, & I know it now. There’s only one thing for us to do afterwards though… & that’s stand back up. We stand & we keep going… because that’s life.
Anyhow, I heard that song tonight & just like back then, I could feel the determination to get back up & keep on going. I could feel a difference inside myself the moment the tide turned. — All from lyrics to a song I knew meant something years ago. Because it’s a message that stands the test of time. —
You can be just a teenage girl in a very big world, picking out a song that encourages you for a school project, without even realizing just how much truth is in the very lyrics that you chose. Not realizing how much you’d bend & break in the years to come. Or without knowing how many times you’d brush yourself off & get back up. — It’s funny… cause I knew, but at the same time I didn’t know.
If you’re reading this… & you’ve taken a tumble recently, maybe give the song a listen. You might like it. 🙂
Every time we get back up, even if we have to fight & claw our way there, we’ve made it. & that’s something. 🙂
Couple Things. 1. It’s after 2 a.m. & I’m cleaning the bathroom. Cause, well, I’m what one would call a procrastinator & it’s what we do. 😀
2. This is me procrastinating even further by taking what I like to call a “cleaning break.” Don’t wanna overdo it… that’d just be irresponsible.. 😉
3. Ya ever creep on people on social media? (& don’t pretend like you don’t, I know… I know you do… Lol, it is what’s done. 😉 — Anyhow, ever check people out on there & see what all they have going on & realize that they need your advice… But like, you can’t give it to em’ cause, well, then you’d have a lot of explaining to do! Lol!! — Yep. That’s actually kind of funny. 😀
4. I like to get a glass of wine, a good book, & a bubble bath throw it all together &… well, not like, actually throw any of it in the bath, but you see where I’m going here. It’s nice & relaxing. & well, that leaves books scattered all over our bathroom over time & my husband complains about it… lol. It’s kinda funny, I think. Anyhow, I just took em all out of here… 11! 11 Total. Tho I did leave one of those 11 cause I’m still reading it. Anyhow… that’s practically a little bookshelf. A teeny tiny one, but still. I could run a library out of here. Anybody wanna check out a book?! 😀
5. I’m going camping in October. I think I should mention that I hate camping, ya know, so that you get the full picture here. Lol. –So if I don’t get eaten by a bear, traumatized by the lack of personal shower/bathroom, or simply go insane… it could maybe be fun! 😀 — I went once & it was a disaster. The bright side here, is it will be much cooler than when I went last time. That was right smack dab in the middle of July & I bout died. I’m a heat hater, for real. — So, fingers crossed that the cooler weather makes it a more enjoyable experience! — I should mention, I’m doing this for my husband. It was technically my idea, buuutttttt, I could have simply rented a hotel room, instead, I knew how much he’d love a camping trip… so I made the sacrifice. — Look at me, I should get a little plaque that says, “Best Wife Ever” to hang on our wall. Ha! 😉 😉
6. My foot has fallen asleep, as it has apparently noticed it’s nearly 3 a.m, while the rest of me seems to have missed that memo. Ya know, the one about sleeping. 😉
Anyhow… talk to you all later! 😉
So I think I’ll write.
Don’t wanna tho. Wanna sleep. Only because I have to get up early & I know I’m gonna hate life in the am.
So I have reasoned that if I’m going to be awake, I might as well be productive while I’m awake. Soooooooo…. Yep. Bout to write the night away. Not on here tho, I have a book to work on…. which technically means instead of sleeping I’m going to be working. — See, now it’s not starting to sound as fun as it did a minute ago. Look what I did. I turned this into something ugly.
Okay, seriously. I need to stop rambling on like this, lol. There is work to be done. 😀
See ya guys later! 🙂
Supposed to be writing…..
Annndddddddd I just spent 30 minutes procrastinating by scrolling around on pinterest, changing the wax in my wax warmer, & eating 2 brownies. (The 2nd brownie was an accident, I didn’t even realize I was eating it until I was half way finished with it. 😀 ) — Not my fault. I cannot be blamed.
This is my life, Lol. 😉
Some people love sunrises, some love sunsets, but I find that I care for neither of those things. No, what I love is the night sky.
Is there anything more beautiful than a crisp, clear, black night? A star painted sky? The dusty trail of the Milky Way’s light? Is there anything more beautiful than looking up & seeing the proof that there is always light to be found in the darkness?
Maybe. I think that’s up for interpretation based off every one’s individual preferences, but for me, nothing rivals it.
I find that when I gaze up at the night sky and I take it all in, I can’t fathom how one does so without seeing it for what it is.
Because it’s a beautiful, masterful creation. It’s some of the best artwork to ever be put on display. I can’t look up and see that and think for even a moment that it was born by chance. — No, it’s in those moments I see just how big my God is. 🙂
Sam: “You’re my friend. I’m never going to take a woman away from you.”
Frasier: “What about Diane?”
Sam: “And didn’t God punish me with a vengeance?”
😀 😀 😀
Having myself a little Cheers binge-a-thon on Netflix. — Cheers was before my time, well, technically it started airing before I was born & I was 2 when the series ended. So until recently I’ve never bothered to watch it. — I found Frasier earlier this year, and what a gem that is! 😀
In the last couple of years or so I have watched MacGyver, The A-Team, Magnum P.I, Murder She Wrote, Frasier, Green Acres, Hawaii five-0, and I’m sure a couple I’ve forgotten about, lol. — Something I’ve noticed tho is that every time I sit down to watch these shows, I find myself wishing today’s shows were like those of yesterday’s. — Cause I sure do love ’em… 😀
I’ve been a bit off the radar for a while. Part of me had no idea what to write about on here anymore and another part of me felt extraordinary pressure to work on my current project. I felt like if I didn’t, then I was somehow failing. Although I have worked on writing my book a bit here and there over the last few months… I wasn’t doing nearly what I could have been doing.
About two weeks ago I sat down one day and just worked hard. I poured more into those few hours than I had put into the last few months. When I was finished, I saw a path to the future. For the first time, since I started this journey, with the blog, two years ago… I saw everything come together in what seemed a lot like an epiphany moment. It’s hard to explain, but I now see a future in my work.
I now see a path to completing this first book and going on to do more. A path which I could not see prior to that day. Which is part of what made it so difficult to keep going. I couldn’t really see where it was going or if I’d even make it there.
I’ve worked with these characters so much that I feel like I know them personally, lol, I’m not crazy. It sounds a lot like imaginary friends and fictional buddies… but really, it’s not as insane as it sounds. 🙂 — It’s what makes this whole thing so worthwhile. I want to share them and all that they have to offer with everyone else. I just have to get their stories out of my head and onto the paper in just the right way. So that you can all know them like I do. — You’ll like em, they’re pretty cool. 🙂
I have a goal: To complete the first run-through of this book by December. I made that goal in January. I have now lost 6 months of time to really work on it. However, I will not change my goal… I will just work twice as hard to reach it.
You guys will meet these people eventually, I promise. 🙂
Heather Marie. 🙂