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A Weight Loss Walk Down Memory Lane… ❤️

Ahoy Mateys!

I’m a little hyper. I just drank half a peanut butter milkshake. It was absolutely delicious, but y’all know that thing was slap full of sugar… and well, I’m not used to that kind of sugar intake anymore.

Don’t get it twisted, I still love sugar. I’d be lost without it. But in 2018 I lost 40 pounds and one of the things I quit was soda. I used to drink like three or four a day, no lie, I lived and breathed Coca-Cola.

But I cut them out, counted calories, and exercised daily. Over time I realized more than just my weight and appearance changed. I noticed a lot of sugar made me extremely hyper but gave me headaches and made me feel sick. I also noticed things like plain potato chips, which I’d happily eaten for ages, were too salty. I had to switch to lightly salted or no salt at all. I liked Mountain Dew before I lost weight, but when I tried it about a year after cutting it out, I decided it tasted much like what I would imagine windshield wiper fluid tastes like. 😂 It was amazing what quitting coke, and cutting out that much sugar did to my body and my taste buds.

I rarely drink my calories, but every now and again I snag a coke, a ginger ale, or a milkshake. Tonight, it was a peanut butter milkshake. I usually get one and share it with my husband. That calorie count is way too high for a single milkshake alone, so we split it.

2018 really did change my life. I’ll never forget it. I’m not just talking about weight loss, either. For those of you that don’t know, for exercise, I dance. I put on fast-paced worship music, and I dance. I move, and I keep moving. My whole world changed. Back then I exercised for an hour a day, and that hour belonged to God. (Now it’s more like 40 minutes, five days a week, but it still belongs to Him! 😘) I worked out and worshiped at the same time. It wasn’t just my body that went through changes. It was my mind, my mental state, my soul, my spirit. All of it. I could cry just thinking about what that did for me, my life, my relationships with the people around me, and my relationship with God.

It really was life changing.

Anyway, so as not to bore you guys any further, I’ll just share a couple before and after photos below, in memory of the year 2018. See y’all, Heather! ❤️

I took this one before I had even finished losing weight. I still had about 10 pounds to go. But I was so excited to see such a difference. ❤️
The photo on the left was when I was at my heaviest. Close to 165 lbs. These were taken a year apart. Christmas 2017 & Christmas 2018.
This I threw in because when my dad saw it he said, whoa, she looks like a different person. 😊 The photo on the left was taken as soon as I hit my weight loss goal, at the very end of June 2018. The one on the right was Summer 2016.
The one on the left was taken sometime in the fall of 2017. It popped up in my FB memories last year and stunned me. It still does. The right was March 2019. ❤️

Book Update — Big Change.

The title says it all.

I have, for the foreseeable future, tabled the book I have been working on.

When I decided to write my first book I didn’t realize that I was going to get lost in the mechanics of it all, so to speak. I didn’t know at the time that I was going to let genre choices, people, expectations, and pressure dictate the story I told. — But that’s exactly what I did.

Instead of focusing on a story that I was passionate about…. I made up a story that I thought would fit where I was trying to make it fit. — I have been trying to write in a way that hasn’t been true to me or who I am. I have been trying to write a book about something that I have zero passion for. I didn’t get lost in my characters & their lives like I should have. I tried… you’ll see that in posts prior to this one, but I think deep down my heart was never really in it. I’m the writer, & I wasn’t even interested in them. I’m still not interested in them. I tried to be… it just didn’t work.

Honestly, I was so worried about the readers I would alienate if I didn’t try to find some way to pull them in, that I made up a story that I thought would fit in several different boxes. — Only, it didn’t make me happy… & I’ve struggled to write it.

A few nights ago, I was outside enjoying the cold night air & listening to some music (My favorite way to relax & to just think, btw) & some characters & a story that goes along with them popped into my head. — That may seem strange to someone who doesn’t think in stories like I do, Lol, I’m not crazy, I promise. It’s just the writer in me. These characters weren’t strangers. Their story is one I thought of a while back & considered writing. Only… it’s a love story… which I thought at the time just wasn’t good enough. — I was wrong.

So I’ve made a decision to change course.

I’m going to write it. I’m going to write my romance-y book & forget all about the people who dislike romance in their books. If that is the case, then I may not be the author for them. & that’s okay. —- It just took me a long time to realize that it’s okay.

I decided to write my first book & then pieced a story together based off what I thought a majority would want to read. — & it hasn’t been working.

I thought if I changed what I was writing, that I was admitting failure. & maybe I am. I’m admitting that, for now, I have failed to make it work. But I started failing from the moment I began…. when I came up with an idea for all the wrong reasons.

If you’re a writer, then maybe you’ll understand what I’m about to say. Most of the time, we don’t choose the stories we tell… they choose us. & it’s those stories that are interweaved into who we are… and so we tell them. — With passion & with fire, we fall in love with what we’ve created as we share it with others.

So as much as I hate to even say it, because it makes me feel like a failure, I have to follow my heart. I screwed up in the beginning and even though I’m headed in the right direction now… I know there will be people who think I just couldn’t do it or that I’m just not dedicated. — That reality kills a little bit of the joy I have found & the confidence I have gained… but I won’t let it stop me.

So until next time,
Heather.

Change Is Happening…

When I first started blogging several months ago I  thought it would be fun because I love to write. — I had no idea that half of the fun would be connecting with other people! Lol.

I struggle to converse & socialize with people. It is one of the hardest things for me to do. So I actually dreaded that aspect of blogging. I am insanely afraid of negativity & conflict. — I have come across some here & there since starting all this. Nothing crazy though. — I am just surprised at how much I enjoy getting to know other people these days!

I’ve been scrolling around WordPress on this lovely Saturday, reading blogs, finding new bloggers, talking with people, and I just had this random thought a few minutes ago —  this is really fun! Not just writing, but connecting with people. — Never thought I’d be saying that, lol.

My blog has slowly begun to strengthen the confidence I have in myself. Lately I feel like I can handle life a little better. I am growing as a person because of blogging.

I hoped it would help me, which is why I did it. I’m amazed, because it has. A couple months or so ago I had a post about how I was seeing a little progress in myself. — Today I see more progress than I did then. — This blog is doing wonders for me.

I’m so happy! 🙂

As Always,
Heather! (: