I Went Somewhere With This…

Ya wanna know the one thing I dislike more than most things? & before I get to that… just let me say that I dislike a lot of things. Hot weather, bacon, (which some would say makes me un-american.. 🙂 ) scary movies, animal abusers, heavy metal music, going to the dentist, terrorists… I mean… the list could go on & on. — But at the very top of it, there is one thing I dislike more than most things…. & that is a hateful christian that uses the name of Jesus to justify their hatred.

See I bet you didn’t think I was gonna say that. Not after I put terrorist on the list. But see that’s the thing… A terrorist needs Jesus… & I know that. They may not know that… but I know it. So when I’m looking at it from that perspective, while I may be absolutely appalled by whatever they’ve done… I am aware that they need a revelation from a life changing God. — Which brings me back to those hateful Christians.

I can be a hateful person. I can be mean. I can be petty.. I can be judgmental. I can decide that someone is sinning far worse than I am. I can put the spite in spiteful when I so choose. I can take “I am right & you are wrong” to a ridiculously condescending level. I can show people unkindness when I’m angry or disagree with them. I can do all these awful things. & I am guilty of doing so on many occasions. But here’s the thing….

I own that… I own up that I am a flawed human being because I am not perfect. I own my weaknesses & am aware that hate can pour out of me sometimes. But here’s the thing… I am never going to give God the credit for those things. If I show hate to another human being in any form… I am not about to put that on God. It’s not from Him & He doesn’t deserve to be cast in such a light as that.

It grinds my gears that there are christians that quote their bibles word for word, but look down on someone who lands in prison. That there are christians that spout about their christianity all the time, but shun their families should they sin differently from them. That there are christians that sit in church & preach compassion, but then lack that very same compassion for people on the outside of their little circles. That there are christians that speak of God’s love, but show people the very opposite by what they say & what they do.

It makes me angry. But it makes me angry because people are watching. People that don’t know God are watching & they are forming opinions & making decisions about Him based off the actions of these people. They are doing God a disservice & an injustice & they are using Him to justify ugliness. & while I can’t do anything about that… I did recently realize there is something I can do.

I can be louder than them. I can be kinder than them. I can choose love, where they have chosen hate, & God will use the platform that I am to show people who He is, through me. But He can’t do that if I’m so angry & wrapped up in hatred for these people. I have to let it go. — & I’m not good at letting things go.

But I am a work in progress. & for the first time, in a long time, rather than anger… some days what I feel in regards to them is pity. I feel sorry for them. That they have all this knowledge of Jesus… but they don’t know His heart. & I don’t want to lose myself & stray so far away that I look like them from the outside. I’m not good at being the bigger person… but that’s what God calls me to be. & if I want others to see Him in me…. I don’t have a choice.

So while I still don’t like it. & they will always be at the top of my list. I can’t focus on that. I have to do every thing I can to counter it. So that people watching may come to know Jesus Christ & all that His grace & love have to offer. I have to be on His side, which means I have to set aside all the anger. That’s the only way.

So until next time… 🙂

 

1981

I fail to be consistent in my writing. I don’t mean to, but it is still true nonetheless.

Having said that… I sat down & wrote 1981 words over the last couple hours.

I’m now going to invoke the saying, “Something is better than nothing.” It’s 1981 more than I did yesterday or the day before, or the one before that.

So, go me. I’m going to pat myself on the back for a job well done. 🙂
It’s also well passed my bedtime. – Night! 😉

Writing Challenge Fun #1

If you only had one window to look out of for the next six months, what would you want to see on the other side? Describe the view & why you chose it. 

Winter. — Cold, crisp air. Clear blue skies. Green trees & Bare trees. Grass that has died… with the occasional sprinkle of frost or maybe even of snow. Ice all around. A light breeze that blows. Cold. I want to see cold, wintry weather. Maybe a lake or a mountain? Or maybe just a backyard in a cozy little neighborhood. I’m not picky. I just want to see winter.  — I want to look out my window & feel the chill on the inside. I want to sense it all around me. I want to see what’s outside that window come to life on the inside. I want to feel connected with it. —-

I feel more at peace during the winter months. There is just something I find extremely comforting & relaxing about it. — I step out into the cold & it brings an automatic smile to my face. It makes me want to spread my arms out & twirl around in circles like I did when I was a little girl.  — I don’t know if it’s the love of cold weather & the sense of clarity I get from it, or the fact that I’m a book loving, blanket hoarder that loves to snuggle up with a hot cup of tea & read for hours on end…. Lol. — Either way, I thoroughly enjoy winter when it is here & long for it when it is away.  —

One of my favorite memories from my childhood is one that should have probably been an indicator that I was going to love wintertime. — My dad would get up early to go hunting & my mom would always fix him a cup of coffee to take with him before he left. — I can remember several times when I would bundle up in my winter attire & take my dad his coffee. (I do believe one time in particular I actually dipped my finger in the cup & tasted it… I was not a fan, coffee smelled good, but it certainly didn’t taste nearly as good, lol!) —  I remember that morning so vividly in my mind. I remember how I couldn’t help but smile when the cold air hit my face as I walked out across the yard. I remember how happy I was in that moment. How amazing it felt outside & how warm I felt on the inside. — To this day winter weather still makes me feel that way. — 🙂

-hmthreatte!

Brand Spankin’ New Idea!

That’s a catchy title, right? I feel like I just got an A+ on one of those 5th grade assignments where we used to have to come up with catchy titles & first sentences to draw readers in. – If by chance it didn’t work on you, please, spare my feelings & let me play pretend. 🙂

So about this new idea…..

I am going to challenge myself to write every single day. — I get in those moods where I just don’t write for a while or can’t think of a thing to say… and I just stumbled across some really good writing prompts, some of which should prove to be quite interesting. (Considering one is about majestic beasts, swat teams, & something else I don’t remember… Lol, either way, so far out of my realm, but should bring so much fun into it! )

Anyhow, I plan to work on one a day or so. Write a few paragraphs or something & just have fun with it. I feel like spicing up what I’m writing about everyday will help keep me from burning out on the same thing day in & day out. — I think a few pages or paragraphs of fun & some writing that is completely out of my zone is just what I need to keep it fresh. — So I’m going to give it a try at least. — All I want is to get in the habit of writing every single day & having wacky fun with it sometimes.

— Of course, I’m still working on writing my book, (I’m actually working on creating the fictional town it takes place in right now. — I’m going on my first little research trip in a couple of weeks… which is not only super exciting but will also help me nail down this fictional town and military base I’m working on, lol. Don’t want to write something entirely impossible & sound like a big dummy… 😉 — Once I finish that part I can get back to writing the story again. — But some fun little stuff in between will help me out I think.

I fully intend to share some of my little writing projects with you guys… so beware! Some may be entertaining, some may be boring, & there is a chance some may be down right terrifying.. 😉

I’m just excited to have some fun & I hope you guys tag along for the ride!

Common Problems of the Dysfunctional Reader…

I am about to attempt something crazy… quite possibly unheard of, even.

I have just cleaned up my Kindle app & dismissed the books that I’ve already completed. That’s when I noticed it. — There are 48 unread/half-read books still lingering about. 48. That’s nearly 50! (Lol, look at me stating the obvious.) & If I’m correct… I do believe I have exactly 4 unfinished paper back novels sitting around the house. — Somebody needs to read the books she already has before she purchases more… Lol. (Haha, don’t tell my husband I have quite so many… he’ll give me the look. lol The “you spent all that money on those books & haven’t read them?… Wait a minute, I just watched you buy a new book the other day! What are you, some sort of book hoarder… that doesn’t even read the books?!” Look. — (Funny how so much can be said in just one look! — 🙂

So, I’m going to attempt what?
That crazy thing that may actually prove to be quite difficult for me.

I’m going to try & read all the books I already have… before getting another one!

I know that must seem like a pretty easy thing to do. It’s just I have this bad habit of scrolling around & seeing books that look interesting…. soooo, naturally I get it & then I’m already so interested in this new story I’ve found I put the current one down & forget to go back to it later. I’m so easily distracted, Lol!  — Ya know, really, that’s just a compliment to all the authors that write so great they hook me & real me in before I even have a chance to stop myself. Lol, see…. it’s not even my fault. — They shouldn’t write so well & then I wouldn’t have this problem! 😉

Now in my defense, several of the books that are half-read were probably left unfinished because it turned out not to be my thing. — It happens. Those I will probably just never read. & truthfully, some of them were most likely free in the genre I was checking out that day & I got it to try it out. — Sometimes that works out. I can’t tell you how many times I bought a free or discounted book & loved it so much I ended up buying & reading a ton of those authors books afterwards. — I love when that happens. — Unfortunately, sometimes it goes the other way. — So some of these books will go in the never to be finished category. — But not most of them. Lol, I paid for these bad boys… I’m going to read them! (Not to mention that most of them that I started were good, I just got a wee bit distracted.. 🙂  )

So…. we shall see how it goes.
I am challenging myself. — No new books until I’ve read the ones I have.

(This should be interesting….. )

-Heather! 🙂