Be Bold!

That title up there is a pep talk to myself, Lol.

I find that I have so many thoughts, opinions, & words to share… but that I’m always too darn afraid to share them.

I started this blog as a way to write, to help encourage myself, to help believe in myself, & to get comfortable with talking & sharing. — To be bold. To be outspoken. To find that girl inside of me that has so much to say & force her to get comfortable saying it all.

I started all this so that I could learn to be confident in what I want to say.

I’m tired of having a differing thought or opinion & being too afraid to speak up because someone might get mad or talk to me like I’m stupid.

It’s time for me to be bold. It’s time for me to stand up & speak up with confidence. — I’m tired of being disappointed in myself over all this. I’m tired of letting moments & opportunities pass because I’m afraid to be bold.

So, yep…

Be Bold!

I encourage you all to join me, lol! (Though most of you are probably leaps & bounds ahead of me, I shall catch up.) πŸ™‚

Proud Of Myself Tonight…

A lot of you already know I’m crazy shy, very quiet, and not a fan of conflict. Well that also means I don’t like expressing my opinion very much… simply because as opinions go there is always someone that is going to disagree with them. Some people don’t take into consideration the other person’s feelings when they disagree with them. — Which in reality is what I try to stay away from. Ugly conflicts. The kind that take a turn towards nasty & hurtful.

Usually I don’t share too many personal opinions or thoughts that could be considered controversial. However sometimes there are things that ignite a fire in me, so to speak. I’m passionate for the underdogs, the oppressed, and the mistreated. Β — That’s just how I am. That’s also when I will speak up. When It involves something I feel passionate about.

I shared a link on Facebook about the new rules Isis has for their women, (they’re horrible, of course.) and mentioned that although people feel there is a war on women here in America, I think that’s putting it too strongly. I don’t think we have it bad here in America. — Someone disagreed with part of that. — Their stance was that I shouldn’t base “bad” off of the circumstances of others because feminism is for all women & we have issues here. — I understood their point & didn’t totally disagree. However, I stood by my position that despite what issues we may have here, we don’t have it “bad.”

** I said all this to say that I am proud of myself. πŸ™‚ I don’t like to enter into conversations that could result in an ugly conflict. Lol & ya just never know. However, I put all that aside, sucked it up, and defended how I felt. — It felt good by the way! πŸ™‚ Β I’m always so afraid to do that… but it felt really good. — I Β have a bad habit of feeling like my thoughts don’t matter or that I’m going to sound like a complete idiot when I try to respond… or that I’m going to get my feelings hurt. & that’s enough to keep me quiet. It usually does. — So I’m really proud of myself! πŸ™‚ **

Just thought I’d share that with you guys! :))

-Heather! (:

The Party Experience..

Okay, I told you guys & gals I had a party to attend & that I’d update y’all & let you know how it went. — Well that party was tonight & I’m sticking to my word.. so here goes…

It was a formal work party(My husband’s job.) & my big thing was that I’m not good with socializing, especially with people I don’t know. — So I was a little scared, I won’t lie. — The thing is, usually my (sometimes irrational) fears of something are way worse than the actual something. — and as usual, that was the case tonight. — Thank God! πŸ™‚

It actually went really well! I was only nervous for the first 15 minutes or so & then I was just fine. — Granted this shy girl isn’t going to turn into a social butterfly overnight or anything like that… but I was not tucked quite so tightly in to my little shell tonight.

The one thing I did notice is that I have this bad habit of looking away when I meet people. It’s pretty uncomfortable sometimes & it’s a habit to shift my gaze away. — Once I noticed I was doing it, I forced myself to do better. — That’s the only way it will get better… is if I make myself get used to it. — It’s always easier to stay in my comfort zone, but I know that won’t get me very far. So I’m slowly working on pushing myself out of it.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m sure people noticed I’m shy & not as talkative as others, but for me and what I’m usually feeling during events like this, I made some progress. πŸ™‚

So I had a pretty good night!

One step at a time..I know I will get where I want to be, even if it’s just one small step at a time. — I have to start somewhere. πŸ™‚

As Always,
Heather! (:

Change Is Happening…

When I first started blogging several months ago I Β thought it would be fun because I love to write. — I had no idea that half of the fun would be connecting with other people! Lol.

I struggle to converse & socialize with people. It is one of the hardest things for me to do. So I actually dreaded that aspect of blogging. I am insanely afraid of negativity & conflict. — I have come across some here & there since starting all this. Nothing crazy though. — I am just surprised at how much I enjoy getting to know other people these days!

I’ve been scrolling around WordPress on this lovely Saturday, reading blogs, finding new bloggers, talking with people, and I just had this random thought a few minutes ago — Β this is really fun! Not just writing, but connecting with people. — Never thought I’d be saying that, lol.

My blog has slowly begun to strengthen the confidence I have in myself. Lately I feel like I can handle life a little better. I am growing as a person because of blogging.

I hoped it would help me, which is why I did it. I’m amazed, because it has. A couple months or so ago I had a post about how I was seeing a little progress in myself. — Today I see more progress than I did then. — This blog is doing wonders for me.

I’m so happy! πŸ™‚

As Always,
Heather! (:

Yay — It’s Working :-)

I started this blog in an attempt to push myself out of my comfort zone and into the world. I started this blog to try and find my voice, to try and become comfortable with putting myself out there & interacting with the world. — I did this so I could grow as a person, hoping to gain some confidence in my ability to be who I am & reach my goals. — In the short time that I’ve had it, I realized something. — It’s working! πŸ™‚

This journey is only just beginning, but it’s working. Slow & steady wins the race… so they say, lol.(At least I think they say that.)

I’m learning not to be afraid to speak and to share, to be real and vulnerable. — It’s forcing me to try harder than I had previously been trying. — It’s been slow, but I see small differences in my actions.

I’ve found criticism, I’m sure there are people that looked at my blog and thought good heavens, no way. (Everyone’s tastes are different, lol) — Once upon a time that thought in itself would have forced me back into my shell & I would have quit. This blog & this decision to push myself is in fact, helping me learn how to handle what comes with it. — Pretty cool, huh? πŸ™‚

I’ve also found support. I’ve found fellow bloggers on WordPress, people that I connect with on many different levels. People I share ideals with, that are kind & wonderful people. When I considered how much rejection might hurt… I realized that not everyone is going to think the worst of me. & even if someone does… there are 50 more people to that 1 that would disagree with them. Β (Haha, I just made up those statistics, lol — but you see what I’m saying.)

The more I do this. The more I interact with others (here & other places) the more comfortable I become with it. Β — I had to do all of this to feel better about it. — It’s working.

I feel more confident when I share with others now. — Is it as good as it could be? No, not yet. That’s going to take time. I’ve been this way my whole life. — But forcing myself out there is making it much easier.

One step at a time, I’ll get there.

Thanks to any & everyone that has supported me &/or my blog & writing.
You’re all amazing! Whether You’re family, friend, kind-fellow blogger… Thank-You! — Because you’ve helped make a difference! πŸ™‚

Yours Truly,
Heather! πŸ™‚

A Simple Time Zone…

I’ve had this blog for like 5 months now… and I finally took the time to change my time zone. — In my defense, when I first started this blog WordPress seemed overwhelming… and you know me, I don’t do overwhelming very well. So usually I just log on & blog or scroll around and read other blog posts. — Basically completely ignore the settings area. — Haha, I do like to ignore anything that seems too much for me to handle. (Bad habit, I know. I’m working on it. )

Anyhow, I’ve started navigating through my settings, learning things, and changing them! πŸ™‚

It’s actually pretty fun. I am officially East coasting it on WordPress now, Lol. — I figure it’s high time I figure this site out.

I know, I know. I should have changed something this simple a long time ago. — I guess since I quit most of what I start because I’m a big chicken or lacking the faith in myself from the beginning… if I had really put my heart into this blog that would have made it more permanent. Ya know what I mean?

If I blogged halfheartedly & didn’t take it too seriously it would be easier to quit. Only I’m finding I don’t want to quit. For once in my life, I’ve found something I’m not backing away from every chance I get. — My blog. — That has to be a good sign, right? πŸ™‚ I actually like sharing & communicating with others. I still prefer it in the written form… but for once the idea of a conversation doesn’t make me run in the other direction. — This blog is changing me… and I like it.

So one small step (an accurate time zone)… seems to be a whole lot more than just a time zone. Lol, who knew?

Until Next Time,
hmthreatte! (:

My First Comment

Okay so this may sound really sad, but I am actually pretty proud of myself. I made my first comment on someone else’s post. Yay me! I know I’ve been blogging for several months now so it shouldn’t have taken this long. I’ve just been so worried about conflict or it going all wrong somehow. — Don’t get me wrong, I know there are super nice people out there on social sites and what not, I’ve just also seen my fair share of the hate.

I almost didn’t comment… out of habit. However I am trying to do better & though a simple little comment may not seem like much, for me, it was progress. — I didn’t comment on anything controversial or make any sort of off the wall comment. It was just simple and easy going. My kind of conversing if we’re being honest. — I’ve just seen where people have said the most innocent things & it turned into some sort of hate war or something. That definitely terrifies me.

I can’t let fear get in the way. I’ve spent my entire life doing just that and quite frankly, I don’t like it and I’m getting to a place in my life where I’m feeling more prepared to do something about that.

So I’ve made my first WordPress comment (made on someone else’s post, I have replied to a few on my own posts.) where I initiated contact. — I could definitely get used to this! Yay me! πŸ™‚