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Super Fascinating List of Things!!

I’ve stayed up way too late. It’s past my bedtime.

I didn’t do a thing today. Well… That’s not entirely true.

I did some things…

  • Slept in.
  • Made some lunch.
  • Took the dog out.
  • Fed the birds.
  • Talked to my Mom on the phone.
  • Did nothing.
  • Watched several YouTube videos.
  • Watched several more YouTube videos.
  • Did nothing.
  • Worked out.
  • Took a shower.
  • Did a load of laundry.
  • More YouTube.
  • Did nothing again.
  • Made supper.
  • Went to the grocery store to get some lemons.
  • Watched the power rangers on Netflix.
  • Cleaned out our closet.
  • More YouTube videos while I folded laundry.
  • Put away laundry.
  • And now here I am!

Okay! So I did do some stuff here & there. Made a few moves! 😉

But it felt like a whole lot of nothing! 😉 — I’ll strive to be twice as productive tomorrow. — Maybe. How bout we just take it one day at a time? Yeah, we’ll see how it goes! I make no promises! 😉😂

Posted in Blog, Book Updates, Self-Publishing, Struggles, Sweet Gum Valley Series, Uncategorized, Writing

Another Update! :)

I should probably start numbering these or something. Idk! — What a bad blogger I am. 😉

Anyhow. I’m roughly 11,000 words into my second novel. I’m having so much fun writing it! I spent five hours today with my fingers flying across the keyboard and wrote about 3500 words. — Just gonna keep going, full steam ahead.

Cover for book 1 still in the making. — Hold tight. It’s coming. — We’ll get there soon. 🙂

I’ve gotten some various feedback from multiple folks on book 1. Going to do a few edits and add a couple of things and make some small adjustments to it later this week. — Also may write up the back cover summary/description later this week. — I’ve been putting it off because I got so sick of looking at that book after several rounds of edits that I thought it’d be a good idea to take a short break and keep my eyes off it for a bit. — It’s been a bit, so may do that. 🙂

What else? My husband and I went on…. a book research trip? 😉 Can I call it that? I mean technically it was vacation, but since we went to the mountains and I created a fictional mountain town based off our many mountain vacations over the years.. I feel like I can call it book research and pretend it was all in the name of work. — That’s a thing, right? 😉

May upload some pics tomorrow or something for you guys. — We took plenty! 🙂 — I was lazy and I didn’t write a thing while there. I did bust out the lap top for the return trip and write a little bit, so there’s that. — Well, technically I pulled my laptop out while there… but it was only to watch parks and rec while lounging around the cabin. — 😀

Anyhow. It’s midnight and I’m tired. — So off to bed I go! 🙂

 

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Ignore Em’ — All of Em’

It’s been a minute since I’ve written anything here that wasn’t about my general life or book updates. — But I’m gonna toss one of those posts out real quick. — It’s deeper and heavier and a little more serious than the usual. — But when I was working out earlier… it’s just something that was really weighing on me… and I just want to talk about it. — So let’s talk.

“God only know’s what you’ve been through. God only knows what they say about you. God only knows the real you. There’s a kind of love that God only knows.” — This song by For King & Country, which isn’t part of my usual work-out mix, started playing and it just hit me so hard.

I went through a lot of personal and spiritual growth last year, but before that… my life was very different from what it is today. — I was broken. Afraid. Miserable. Crippled by fear. Lost. Alone. Drowning. I was carrying some very heavy burdens. — I was wrapped up in chains. So very many of them.

And I could cry, just sitting here writing this, because I’m not anymore. I’m none of those things anymore. — I know freedom and peace that I’ve never known in all my life. — And this isn’t me preaching about salvation. I knew God long before last year. — That changed nothing about the chains I was wrapped up in. — This post is about something else entirely. — It’s about those lyrics I just typed a couple of paragraphs up.

I spent my entire childhood, teen, and young adult years coming up short. Hell, I’m still coming up short. — Family members, people who claimed to love me in one breath when speaking to my face… turned to breathe ugliness and hatred about me in the next breath to other people. — And not just one. Multiple. Multiple family members. Multiple sides of families. — And that hasn’t changed today. Families grow and take different shapes over the years… So I’ve acquired some more along the way. Some good, kind, and really supportive people… and some of just the opposite.

But this post isn’t about them. It’s still about those lyrics up there.

Those people got to me. It bothered me. For so very long, I cared so very much what people thought. — I cared when people thought I was a disappointment. I cared when people talked bad about me. I cared when they treated me differently. I cared when they didn’t understand, but they judged me anyway. — I cared so much. And I let that define me.

But the thing is guys… People might think they know what you’ve been through. They might think they know the real you. — And they will say all sorts of things about you. Think all sorts of things about you. — But none of those things matter. None of those opinions matter. — And they never will.

We’re only human though. And for some, like myself, we end up surrounded by people like that very early on. Our lives are filled with people who think less of us. With people that look down on us. — It hurts. Life is already hard without people piling on.

I just couldn’t let today pass without saying this. — If you can relate. Please hear me when I say this. — Ignore them. All of them. Every last one. — Your worth is not found in the opinions of other people. You are not defined by what anyone thinks or says of you. Ever. — You’re value is worth far more than the insignificant opinions of others. — And their opinions are insignificant. — Don’t give place to the misunderstood and/or hateful words and thoughts of others. — Ignore them. Every last one.

See, this post isn’t about those people. — It’s about the people fighting to keep their heads up, the people who are drowning in a sea of harsh judgments and misguided opinions.

Whatever your story. Whoever you are. — Know your worth. And know that it’s not found in other people. — You’re far more valuable than you realize… don’t let anyone steal that away from you.

And for the people in your life that are your people… the ones that are for you, at the end of every day, no matter what… hug those people a little tighter. 🙂 Surround yourself with them and then shut out the rest of the voices.

I wish I’d known how much those opinions never mattered. I wish I’d known before 27 years old. I wish I’d known before I’d let them seep into my soul and reside there. — Last year I kicked them out. And I remind myself anytime they crop up in any way…. that there’s only One that defines me. And I already know what He says. And it’s the opposite of what they say. So why would I listen to them, when He created the entire universe? — I think not.

I know my worth now. And it’s my hope that everyone that reads this knows theirs too. 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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An Update, A Story, And Some Rambles…

Missing in Action! — That’d be me! 😉

Seriously tho. I’m back! — Forgive me?

Mini Update: I finally finished the multiple edits I was working on! — Last Thursday. So, a week ago. — Lemme just tell you. Reading through your own work over & over & over… & over again… is tedious and not exactly a boon for self-confidence! 😉 — By the time I was finished I was like I never want to look at this again. — But that was a week ago and I don’t feel so strongly now.

I’ve set it to the side and handed it off to several people to read for some general feedback and fresh eyes. — And while that’s going on I’ve started book 2! — Roughly 7,000 words in. Not too bad. — Gonna put the petal to the metal with it and knock it out as quickly as possible.

Also! — Book cover is in the works. (For book 1) — When it’s complete I will start promoting it much more heavily. — This is all very new and the whole process is a learn as I go sort of thing. So that’s what I’m doing. — One step at a time. — I’m sure when I hit this stage for book 2 everything will fly a bit faster because I will have done it before. — That always helps. — In fact, Book 2 is already progressing faster than the first one did. So there’s that!

Let’s see! What else can I tell you? — Oh. I had my first break down over this whole thing. — Story Time!! —

I handed it off for some people to read last Thursday. Friday night my husband and I had to run up to the grocery store and he ran in real quick to get something.

Well my Mom read it Thursday night and called Friday while we were on the way to the store. — She couldn’t really talk at the time so she didn’t say much about it. It’s not like she said, aye this sucks. She just said she finished it and then she had to go. — But oh boy.

After Jeremy hung up, I pulled into the parking lot, and he ran inside. And that’s about the time it hit me like a ton of bricks. — I started balling. Just sitting in the car sobbing.

It hit me that this was it. I never really thought past writing it. — You know people are going to read it and you know they’re going to judge it. But knowing that and knowing someone has actually read it and have now judged it… Well, that’s entirely different!\

It was at that moment I realized the reality of it all. I don’t just write books. I have to let people read them too. What a concept, right?  — It’s scary! — I was terrified, I’m still terrified. Y’all don’t even know. Or maybe you do!

My husband got back in the car and was like… Uhh… What is happening right now? — 😀 & can’t say as I blame him, I was not crying pretty like Carrie, okay? Those were ugly tears!

And when we got back home, I was better, but not great. Because before we left I was like, okay, I need to start book 2 while I get things done for book 1. I need to be doing things at all times. — And I got home and was like, no. Why bother? Book 1 may be the worst thing ever written, why bother with the second one? — It was so self-depreciating, y’all. I can’t even.

Ya know what I did though? I fired up my lap top and did it anyway! — I reminded myself that no one else’s thoughts or opinions have the power to define me or control my actions… unless I give it to them. Unless I let it. — So I started book 2.

There will be people who don’t like my work, just as there will be people who do. I know this. Knowing it and experiencing it will definitely be two completely different things. — As my break down in the car can attest to. — Thank God it was nighttime. That was a crowded parking lot. lol!

But I won’t quit. I’ll keep pushing. — I’ll fall apart. I’ll get fed up. I’ll get excited. I’ll succeed. I’ll fail. I’ll get tired. I’ll make progress. I’ll want to quit. I’ll want to keep going. — I’ll run the gamut of emotions and that’ll be okay. — I’ll come out on the other side. 🙂

So there’s an update, a story, and some rambles! — Enjoy guys!