Another day down in the books. (Insert thumbs up here.)
Wrote 3000 words & finished a scene I’ve been working on for like 3 days now.
It’s flowing, it’s smooth, it’s good. (Ignore that I’m biased because, I, of course, think my own work is brilliant. 😀 )
I even sent a little snippet to my best friend/sister-in-law & I was like, “I don’t think I’m half bad at this.” And she was like… “Yeah, you have a knack for it.” — Yes, we talk like this… kindly, don’t judge us. 😉 ) — Then she told me to hurry up so she can read it in its entirety and not just the little teasers I keep sending her. 😉 — I mean… the snippets & the teasers are good… it’s all good, amiright? 😀 — If you don’t think I’m right… please don’t burst my bubble. Everybody has the right to bubbles!
Anyhow… progress is being made… we’re moving along.
Y’all… it’s happening.
There have been moments along this journey where I very much thought it would never happen. — It’s happening. Right now.
I’d kick myself for all the time I wasted… but I genuinely believe that I wasn’t ready until now. I couldn’t have done this before…. because I wasn’t in a place where I could do it.
I’m in that place now & it’s happening.
I know that there were a whole host of people who didn’t & maybe even don’t now, believe me or in me. That used to bother me so bad. I mean turn my world upside down bad… because I already didn’t believe in myself.
Y’all know what is beautiful? I believe in me now. — I have a confidence that I didn’t have before… That God has given to me… that has changed everything.
Nobody can undo what He has done. No amount of disbelief in me… can shake my belief in myself. You can’t shake my foundation… because God built it… it’s quake proof. 😀
But I’m sure there will be people who read this & think… Yeah. Right. Okay. Here we go again.
And y’all wanna know something…. That’s alright. I don’t do any of this for any of them. I do it for God first and me second. — But once upon a time…. I would have felt that to my core. I needed people to believe in me… in an effort to convince myself to believe in me, and when they didn’t… it just reinforced my disbelief in myself. (What a hot mess that was!) — & now…
If you aren’t #1 or #2… that’s God & me… & you do have an opinion that is one of doubt… that’s okay… you can have it, it’s yours to have… but it’s irrelevant. — You can’t tear down what God has built… and He has built me up.
Y’all…. It’s happening. — & I’m excited! 😀