I saw a quote by Mother Teresa earlier that said, “People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway.” — The Bible says in Mark 12:31, “The second is this: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these.”
By far one of the hardest things to do is love someone you really don’t like. The Bible says to love your neighbor as yourself… but who are we kidding, that’s not always easy. — There is a person in my life that I struggle not to lose my temper with, that I struggle not to stay angry with. I can just hear God telling me to calm down & try harder. — I’m going to be honest… sometimes I tell Him no. He knows my heart, He knows the turmoil going on inside. If You can’t be honest with God, then who can you be honest with?
I’m writing this today because I feel torn apart inside. Part of me is so frustrated & angry. The other part is fighting not to be.
This isn’t even about me. Well, it is now. It started out of love for another person. To see an injustice done to someone you love and then to see a look of hurt in their eyes… there is nothing that will fuel a fire faster. — The problem is that more than one thing was done and every time I got angrier. — Now I’m to the point that I am losing what is left of what little respect I had left for this person. — I’m struggling to see the good in them. Which is something I’m usually pretty good at… finding the good in people. I’m just so fed up I can’t see through to the other side anymore. — Some days I do okay. Lately, however, that hasn’t been the case. — I’ve come close to losing my temper a lot more than usual. — I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I don’t even know how to end this post. I don’t know what to say. — I feel like I’m annoying myself just writing this whole thing. So if you are reading this and you are annoyed, I’m sorry. — Maybe it feels that way because this is an ongoing problem and every time I talk about it, the people around me have heard it so much they seem annoyed. — I don’t know. — I’m running out of places to talk about it. — but it still feels the same.
I’m going to keep trying. — Maybe a change is coming. 🙂
Thanks for reading.