This is most definitely one of the scariest things I’ve ever attempted. What should be so simple… is actually quite difficult. I love to read & I love to write. If I could spend all of my time doing anything in the world, it would be those two things. — I look around & see a world full of people that are confident in their ability to reach their goals & make their dreams come true. However, when I look at myself I don’t see that. I see someone terrified of failing, someone that freezes in front of the keyboard if others will be reading it, someone that is not good with socializing, and someone that always seems to give up rather than try.
I feel like the unconfident version of John Boy from The Walton’s. No, really, I do. He wanted one thing; he had one goal. He wanted to be a writer. However, he had the one thing that I sometimes lack… the faith in his ability to make it happen.
This blog is the beginning of a journey. — One that I’m sure will be full of ups & downs. This is the moment I choose to push myself towards my dreams. There may never be another soul to actually sit down & read what I write here… though I hope someone will, however, even if no one does I’ve put myself out there and created this blog. For that alone, I am proud of myself. —
I’m sure some days I will type about whatever is on my mind when I sit down in front of the computer; maybe nothing related to writing. Other days I will update about my progress, my life, and how this writing thing is going.
How it’s going now… I started this blog and put myself out there. I have a story playing out in my mind that I want to turn into a book. I have bits & pieces on paper. I have a chapter or 2 worked out. I am working on a list of detailed questions for my sweet husband.. (I need some insight into the military life, he was a corpsman in the Navy.. and now I’m going to put him to work.. 🙂 & I’m committing myself to this wholeheartedly.
This blog isn’t just about writing so that I can write, if that makes any sense, it’s about believing in myself enough to write in a place that is open to the public. It’s about a leap of faith. — It’s also a release, a way to think it all out at the end of the day. — I’m excited! This should be fun… 🙂